10 4 / 2014
Fuck me, TOTALLY akward start of my day. Oh why do I do things that make me hate my own personality! Oh now I’ll feel bad about this for a really long time.
09 4 / 2014
"I’m always somewhere in between being atheistic and being religious. I cherish the moments wherein I know I am extremely blessed and lucky to be alive and healthy, but I also seem to always question what being ‘blessed’ means really and if it means that maybe there is more than just accepting life as it is or trying to squeeze more out of it."
08 4 / 2014
I’ve been told that I should appreciate it more when good things DO happen. Well I just got some GREAT news. And I feel ecstatic! Next order if business is trying to hold on to this feeling for as long as possible!
08 4 / 2014
Hello there *imaginary* friend! How nice to see you *not* here. Well yes, I AM drunk at 3 in the morning on a tuesday… And you ARE correct I AM crying my eyes out… Well you know what my *dearest* friend I am about to pass out so wake me in the morning with that thing you call *regret* and also with some *sorrow*…
05 4 / 2014
Friends? What friends?
31 3 / 2014
You’d think that after 22 years of verbal and mental torment, I’d not let people get the better of me when I’m challenged. I shouldn’t let them tear up the years of work I put into getting myself somewhat sane. I should be able to brush off the negativity and hurtful things because I’ve heard it all before, nothing can be new at this point.
You’d think it wouldn’t hurt me harder and deeper every single time, more than the first time and never for the last time.
You’d think that.
I thought that.